acreditation

hospital acreditation coming soon
so we will be having some briefing, some meeting

and also have to wear something weird

to show that we are joining in this

among that are:

- stupid batch saying: sedia menolong

- some stupid cards

- remember some codes and meaning behind it

and will have some rehasal during offiice hour

about code red, code yellow etc etc

to see how we react/ respond to each

The result

first rehasal started last friday:

anouncement made through hospital PA system:

ward 6A code orange, ward 6A code orange,

we responded: F U no free lah .... -- ignored--

then later, ward 5D code red, ward 5D code red

my stuff nurse told me, dr now code red oredi

i asked: "which ward? 5D right, then is not our problem

go and send the patient blood to lab. we need it stat.."

seem the acreditation surely will fail ler..

雾里看花

雾里看花总是美丽的。

迷蒙中带点神秘，让人可望不可及

但是一旦近观之，在垂手可及处，那就。。

没什么了不起，毕竟少了那一份的神秘感，

那一丝的朦胧之美。。。

DC bead

DC bead- new age of treating liver cancer

both colorectal cancer with liver secondaries

and primary liver cancer

but my big boss somehow dislike it

poison-- alcohol

ppl always like to poison themselves

and always, the poison is colourful and attractive

of course, it should be nice in taste

that's why so many ppl died

recently helping my boss doing epidemiology of hepatocellular carcinoma

found that almost all HCC is related to liver cirrhosis

and found that the most common causes of liver cirrhosis are

1) chronic hepatitis

2) alcoholism

the next thought in mind is: oh shit! i am an alcoholic

that fulfill CAGE criteriae..

die lah this time

cadaveric liver donor

some protocol..

hmm is very complicated ler

waiting... is like....

waiting.. is like... sitting is a coffee shop... and do nothing

waiting.. is like... hopping out of bed and thinking about the one

waiting.. is like... (err.. hmm... i dunno lah)

waiting, (from not me)

是不是每個人都會等到命定的那個人，他愛你就好像你是他的天命？
有人說：「真的可以等到嗎？不一定每個人都等到的呀。」
有人問：「意思是只要等就可以？那我還要等多久？」
很多人等著中巨額彩票，可是，大部分人一輩子也沒中過獎。幸運兒畢竟只佔小數。那麼，到底要不要等，又要等到什麼時候？
要是你珍惜你此刻所愛的人，你就是等到了。這世上，永遠也有更好的。那個未知的更好的，又是否愛你一如你愛他？
人生匆促，等待卻是漫長的。到底是空空的等待，一直孤身一人，浪擲光陰？還是百轉千迴的等待？愛過別人也被別人愛過，直到一天，終於遇上命定的那個人？
每個人的際遇不一樣。有句話很殘忍，卻也是事實：有些人的確是比其他人幸運，他們等到了。
要是你現在是一個人，等待的意思，從來不是坐在那裡什麼也不做。等不到命定的那個人，是不是就白活一場？沒有愛情的人生難道就不是人生嗎？有些人在等待的過程中逐漸老去，變成孤獨的老女人和老男人，虛度一生。另一些人，在等待的過程裡從來沒有忘記好好經營自己。即使他們最後還是一個人，卻活得精彩。
你是什麼人，就會有什麼樣的等待。等待，也可以不是被動的。等待，不是守株待兔，當然也不是餓狗撲兔，只要看到兔子就不理好歹胡亂撲上去。也許，等待是一種領悟。我們等待，我們長大，但我們並沒有白白老去，我們明白了人生也不過是一場等待。

after 5 EOD calls

this is after 5 EOD calls,

meaning on call every other days

and this noon still working in clinic

the eyes is like panda oredi.. swollen and black..

how to do eye treatment ler? cucumber or tomato?

is it will be effective?

see this in the pantry

somebody pasted this at the notice board in the pantry
should be for some of the stuff nurses here
is kinda fun

a raining morning

this is a post call morning
and i woke up in cold.
outside raining heavily...
err... so difficult to open eye
--- after a tiring night, with just minimal sleep
--- and in such a lovely morning
look out from the window.. see... so nice
but the work has just begun :(

10 calls per month

this month is crazy..
i have 10 calls in a month
this feels like being an HO in HTAR
previously they do 10 calls in a month
but recently changed to shift system
so envy of that type of life
while i still struggle for my heavy on call.

爱情终究是经营不来的- 张小娴

一個女孩問：「任何感情都是需要經營的，對嗎？只是為什麼不能順其自然，對其放任自由？」
問這個問題的女孩，應該是很年輕吧？當你比現在長大些，你會明白，這個問題不必問。
感情既要經營，也要順其自然，放任自由。至於怎樣去掌握當中的分寸，是個人的天資。然而，天資縱有多麼高，也許還是敵不過緣份。愛情終究是經營不來的。
我們唯一可以經營的，只有自己，唯一可以管的，也只有自己。學著去珍惜和欣賞眼前人，便是最深情的一種「經營」。愛情只能順其自然，既然明知道管一個人太累，不如給他自由。他的自由也就是你的自由。隨時可以走，但還是喜歡留在你身邊。無論經過多少風波，始終愛你，那麼，他才是你的。
兩個彼此相愛的人，不會苦苦思量一段感情到底是要經營還是要順其自然，因為一切是那麼自然，茫茫天地，是有一個人，覺得愛你是自然不過，也是理所當然的事。
我是自由放任派，也許不是因為我有自己想像的那麼灑脫，而是我知道，千辛萬苦的經營毫無意義，倒不如等待一個人，他愛你就好像你是他的天命

坐井观天

如果视野如此窄小，那格局将不会开阔.

人也不会开朗。

要知道外面的世界是多么的美好。

当失意时，不妨退出框框，抽离角色

从不同的角度看看这个世界吧！

hospital playground

in a busy day in hospital, suddenly have a peep at the playground
3 children were playing over there, under the hot sun
and the mother rest under the roof..
what a peace scene, thus quickly get a snap shot of it
memorizing the moment that i longed for
-----> doing nothing, just sit down and day dreaming...